4 months down.

Well, it's not quite 4 months yet...but hey, close enough right?

i recently just got back from my trip to seattle. it was beautiful! why do i live in texas again? it must be the people, bc the weather, humidity, and flat lands have nothing to do with why i stay here. the weather in seattle was so beautiful, the mountains in the background literally blew my mind every time i looked at them. it was just nice. i loved being able to spend time with momma bear. i've missed her so much, and it feels different at home knowing she's not there. we went on a cruise around seattle, and the zoo (never going there again....retarded zoo) we went to FORKS...where they film the twilight saga. oh my gosh, it was just sooo cool! i feel like i sound like a little kid right now, but i'm thinking that's how i should feel. i got to spend time with these girls that are 15, maddie and makenzi, they definitely made the trip interesting. it's hard for me to think that they look up to me, or ask me for advice...i don't feel like i'm older? maybe that doesn't make sense, idk. just brought back a lot of memories hanging out with them.

i came home to roomates. oh the joy of roomates. i got so used to being by myself that i forgot what it felt like to share, and not be such a witch about them having a good time. living with megan was a lot different then living with elizabeth and derek. may was the homebody, that studied all night, and slept when she had free time. which was awesome, because i would join her in her room for naps. which she probably didn't necessarily like at times, but she loves me. :) i miss my stuff. i miss my bed, and my pictures in cali. i miss the boy that goes along with all of that. blah blah blah, i know you love all the mushy stuff.

as to how i feel with the deployment at this point. it's annoying. it annoys me that i still have to wait 3 months to see him. yes, i could be miss superwoman and say "oh my GOSH! it's on the downhill of the deployment and time is flying!!!!!!!" umm... :) it's not. i'm annoyed at this point when people take advantage of their relationship and just throw it all away. seriously people, realize what you have before it's too far gone. i do believe that this deployment has made me have butterflies all over again, and i'm looking forward to the first hug and kisses i get from trav, but if i could help it, i would have rather him never gone over there. i want to grow closer with him here, not on the other side of the world. which i'm sure all of my ladies that understand that, feel the same way.

i still have puppy/kitten fever. how do i make it go away?!!?!? AGH!

train is on my pandora right now, and it is boosting my mood.

sam was recently put into the hospital this past weekend. said she was having cramps in her stomach, thought that she had a twisted ovary. which scared the crap out of me. keep her in yalls thoughts please. i'm worried about her, and she really just deserves the best at this point. i really hope she doesn't lose the baby. that would crush her, and me...along with my family.

until then, hasta pasta.